I don't need anything. I don't need anyone.

I just want it :)

Pink

I don't really understand what has happened, what's going on with me and why things happen the way they do. I wish I could just look ahead with a sweet smile and a naughty one to the past... if it was just as easy as that...

The truth is that life goes on and you can fix very little looking back again and again, whether it's two days or two years. The sun will rise again, the calendar will loose another day, the alarm clock will wake us up no matter how hard we try to snooze it, the world will start again... and die while we sleep. The truth is that, as much as one can try to re-live and change the past out loud, time and space won't let us do it. So it should be easy to look ahead with a sweet smile and wink to the past... What an irony.

Wanting what we don't have, trying the impossible to get closer to what we wish for or mere chemistry stronger than the reason, the only truth is what we feel. Although because I am an under developed human being with a conscience, I cannot continue without ripping the skin off uncertainty and ignorance.

Tired

I am so tired... Tired of lying, tired of pretending, tired of being nice, tired of what life is. I love listening to all those who take decisions, all those who take their life and live it and don't wait for others to rule it. Tired. So fucking tired.

Discovered in my library

Alone in the cab

Life works up and down to keep the balance. Famous ying – yang, positive in the darkness or negative in the light. Walking around in circles suddenly the world collapses around us, we slowly manage to find solutions until we get over it and we get used to that feeling enough to provoke a new earthquake. And back to the beginning. Everybody, no exceptions.

Some people don't realise on time that they won't live this day ever again and other decide to ignore it. We spend our lives choosing and dressing up these choices as "must-do" from our world. Being smart helps to solve material needs and wreck your emotional status; it would be so great to be able to believe the big lie that says that society does not allow us to lead the life we want. The truth is that some things demand being brave to maintain them and others being brave to be defeated. The intelligence erases the eye mask.

Four birthday celebrations. Bloody great to feel the warmth of those around me. Great to know that, at the end, I came back home alone in the cab.